__________guilty

hmmms. i feel guilty for not blogging for so so long. *shudders* wondering how i could not blog for so long. but i bet it'd be quite long b4 i blog again. oh wells. jus love the new layout. its black. (= hehs. oh wells, shall talk abt some stuffs.

we had 2 games today.. played agnst amk (our all-along rival sch) and tkss.. started off wif tkgs vs amkss. dunnoe the score, but we played 3 quarts. i played all three, so by the end of it, was quite chuan oredi. i dunnoe abt how i did, but mary did not reallie say anything abt me, except that i kept standing so close to the transverse line despite being double guarded. hopefully thats a good sign lor. (= oh wells. was quite upset wif my teammates for some stupid reason.. but i told myself that i cudnt let that affect me. i had to concentrate. so i reallie went out for every ball that i could. i tried hard, and am ok abt it. but i noe i can do more. then for the tkss game, everyone was so slack lor.. S= mary was quite pissed off wif us. *sigh*

went wif stan, jodd, joce and shann to kfc to makan. then while i was walking out, i saw this red BMW turning in to KNC. i screamed. -- it was jloo. the last time i saw her was on tues. but i dint have the courage to speak to her.. maybe i shud lor. hmmm. i will. tuesday aft trng.. before her trng. (= hmmm.

when we came back frm KFC, we sat at the stands, watching the open squad do warm ups. then jloo walked over to get a drink. i dint noe she was sitting so near me. i was so paiseh-ed. then stan jus had to say my name out so loudly.. i was so malu-ated, i walked away lor.. then aft a while, i went back to sit down. jloo was doing pair ballwork wif pearline. realized that jloo's passes are super strong lor. hmm. must learn. (= then jus as i was abt to go say hi to jloo, as i had promised, joce said 'i see mary' then we all screamed and flew out of knc. i felt my face turn red-hot.. i knew jloo saw us.. everyone in knc must have thot 'who the hell are these ids'.. buts lor. haish. mary dashed my chance of speaking to her.

nevertheless..

i will try again.



and this time, mary CANNOT interfere in my plan! hahh.